masterpiece.

Wed, 02 Dec 2009 04:32:21 GMT

I find out tomorrow if I broke my wrist or not. I'm not really upset about, rather than pissed.

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 00:39:05 GMT

My mom was ok with me going to Chris' mom's house for Thanksgiving after my dinner.I was so relieved. My aunt wanted to hear all about him.
His grandpa loves me and is the cutest old man I know.
One of his little cousins called me Frankenstein and a monster. She was also drinking Ski. Too much caffine for a 3 yr old. She also saw that I was eating a dessert and asked me for a bite. I've never met this girl. It was too funny, so of course I gave her a bite.
We came back to Springfield because Justin wasn't having a good night. We also saw Mystery today!

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 21:59:18 GMT

I've been so moody lately, its annoying.
Alex texted me. He's back in town. I love how he doesn't want to keep in touch until he has nothing to do.
Eric texted me when he got back too. He "misses me". That's a lie, he's back in town for break also.

I love the rain.

Noellen is going into the Navy. I just hope he does alright.
Tim asked me how I was doing. Sometimes I wonder if his new girlfriend knows he is always trying to keep updated on my life. She looks 12, I worry for her.

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 01:50:26 GMT

While in Chicago, we saw a lady get hit by a car on the way to our hotel. We went shopping! We ate at a whore house, hahaha. Me and Jessie went to dinner by ourselves. I ended up not being able to see Alexa which was a huge bummer. We ate at RainForest Cafe. We went to the Art Institute. I had Dunkin Donuts for the first time.
I had a really great time. I miss Chris a lot though. I saw him for 20 minutes today because my mom didn't want me staying in town.

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 08:03:04 GMT

I love my life and I don't know how else to explain it.

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 22:50:29 GMT

This weekend has been wonderful, especially the weather.

Friday; Youth and Gov't. And then at Alysha's until midnight. My mom is getting so calm about me being out.

Saturday; Cleaned, went to Chris' at 11, went to his mom's from there. We spent the whole day with his family instead of going to see NFG. It was totally worth it. His family loved me. I was so relieved. His little sister is just like him, it's adorable.

Today; Cleaned Chris' room, came home, slept, then celebrated my mom's birthday.

Her birthday isn't until Tuesday and we are all busy, even on Tuesday, so my parents are coming to eat at my work! They're so cute.
I love my mom.

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 20:29:36 GMT

I carved me and Chris' pumpkin, because the one time he tried, he cut the spider's leg off.
We bought an electric carver, it's like a mini turkey carver.
Justin messed up his design so it ended up just being a hole. Pictures up soon.
We got breakfast this morning. it was cute.
Mystery is getting married and I couldn't be happier for her. I just wish her roommate would be somewhat happy for her.

I miss when things were completely cool with us, and I told you everything.

I start my ACT Prep classes tomorrow.
I hate going places where I know no one.

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 03:57:55 GMT

Halloween costumes:
Me as Lucy from I Love Lucy!
and Chris as Ricky Ricardo from I Love Lucy!
So excited.

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 04:56:54 GMT

Chris is the boyfriend every girl dreams of.
He helped me design a shirt tonight. He even watched One Tree Hill with me.
He buys me everything after I give him the stink eye. He finally let me buy him dinner tonight.
We're going to Bloomington on Friday, I'm so excited.

Work is better than ever. I love it and everyone there. My favorite is the old couple that comes regularly on Tuesdays. I already memorized their order. The old man told me to never leave because he loves coming in to see my smiling face.

My hair is back to straight, I'm getting it cut again this week.

My bruises are back to being crazy. It rules.
Dark purple one in my armpit, gnarly colorful one on my foot, ones that look like purple marker on my hips.

Everyone seems so upset nowdays, I don't know what's getting into everyone. Probably the cold.

Evan's moving back up here in December. He's back with Ashleigh and apparently she's cool with me and him being friends.
Can't wait to see how long that'll last.

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 21:13:14 GMT

We're official as of last night.
He took me to see Fun. in Peoria. Best night of my life.

Venia tonight at the Blacksheep. With Mystery!

My life couldn't be any better.

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 03:54:53 GMT

Long talk with Tim on Sunday. He finally cleared everything up with me.
All I can do is hope he does better than what he is now.
He needs to start new. And not get so desperate.

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 17:40:00 GMT

Being a waitress makes more money than I would've ever expected.
I always have fun at work. Today was my 3rd week.

I guess me and Chris are talking.
He's really really nice. Sometimes I even tell him to be kinda mean, even though it never works.
Sometimes I wish I would end up dating a guy my age though.

I've gotten closer to better people.
More positive people. Not people that do nothing but smoke weed, not have a job and mooch.

Today's beautiful.
I'm at Chris's waiting for him to get off of work so we can go to Decatur.
Mystery is coming with and we're picking up Courtney.
I'm going to lunch with Jake. He's really became a good friend of mine.

Oh yeah, me and Evan are friends again.
Him and Ashleigh broke up, finally.
I wish I could visit him for his birthday.
Damn Florida.

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 22:56:51 GMT

Thrifting ruled today. I didn't buy anything over $5 and I got like 10 things.
I get my hair permed Wednesday, finally.
My kitchen is almost completely finished. It's so nice to be able to cook again.
Jen is finally home for good on the 8th.
I love my mom.
I finally found a beer I like.
I'm so ready for a legit job.

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 22:15:30 GMT

I'm so mad at my sister right now. She's making my dad feel like shit.
She lost her temper on senior trip and pulled a girl's hair out. My mom blamed it on my dad, because my sister did.
I'm so mad right now. Things better blow over soon and she better move out May 29th.

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 03:30:23 GMT

I'm going to prom with a kid that I haven't talked to in years.
I'm borrowing everything that I need. (dress, shoes, jewelry, etc.)
I would have never expected this.

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 03:50:46 GMT

I'm pretty happy with where I'm at.
Now only if my friends were happy...

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 21:44:51 GMT

Today is the worst day of my life.

And I have no friends.
I've got myself in a really good situation.

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 00:58:42 GMT

I have this really odd dilemma.
I don't know how to cut my hair, but I have an appt on Thursday.
Help? Anyone?

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 01:15:04 GMT

I'm back with Tim. That's all.

We won our first varsity softball game tonight. I played right field.

I'm staying with Tim on Saturday night. Sunday is Mariha's birthday, we're going to lunch.

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 22:28:19 GMT

I don't care what anyone has to say, I'm unhappy without him.

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 03:11:25 GMT

I haven't posted one of these in so long.

I want to go to Oklahoma so bad. I just feel the need to go on a trip. June can't come soon enough. I want freedom and the ability to drive alone.
We found a car that I thought I was going to get. I got my hopes up and my dad ended up not wanting to get it. "it would be unfair to Laura" That's bullshit, it was a great deal on a wonderful car.
I'm so deep in love, it's great. We've been together 6 months and it's the greatest feeling in the entire world. I miss staying the night with him though. There's another plus about the summer. Last night was the first night in 3 weeks. My mom thinks were on "friend terms" so she allows us to hang out. He's taking me to see the movie "Knowing" on Friday. I'm so excited. We went shopping on Friday and then hung out all of Saturday and until 2 today. I wish I could be with him more often.
Softball is taking up my life and I don't know if I can do this. It's making me hungry all the time and that's killing me. I just keep telling myself not to break down. I have to be strong.
I have this 5 page paper about Julius Caesar to write. Ew.
There's a chance Alexa might come stay with me this weekend and I'm so ecstatic!
Everyone's relationships are ending and that has me worried.

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 21:35:47 GMT

Knowing that me and Tim can work out our problems and then feel even stronger about eachother in the end is the best feeling in the entire universe. I love that boy with all my heart.
Alexa's coming here during my Spring Break, I'm so excited. I love that lady.
Lately, I've felt the closest to Alexa, Casey, Mariha, and Courtney.
Softball has started up, I'm already tired of always being in Pawnee.

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 20:56:35 GMT

I love my boyfriend. He is one of my best friends, he actually takes the time to listen to me. We've been so great lately, it's so nice. I'm so glad he's the one I'm with. I found this and it is TOTALLY right.
"Love is a feeling that must be reciprocated to be real. You must put all your faith, all your trust in the one you love. You must believe that people can change for the better, & that you are enough to keep that person around. You must believe that the person you love will not hurt you. This doesn't mean it'll be easy, & this doesn't mean there will never be doubts. There will always be times where you'll need to be reminded, & there will be times where you'll trust less, but that doesn't mean that you don't trust at all. There are ups & downs with everything. Love takes work, but I honestly believe that no matter how hard it gets, in the end, it will always be worth it. Have faith, love prevails."
I spend my weekends with Tim. I'm tired of being the only one who tries in friendships. Sure, you can say I'm only 15 and going to regret ever doing this, but I won't. Right now, I love Tim, tomorrow I will too. Oh and I also had the best sleep of my life last night.
Casey mailed me the cutest Valentine I've ever got. It has made my day because it was a complete surprise and really showed that she is a TRUE friend. Tim got me some candy, a card, a night out to a movie, and Arby's. I made him this cute collage.

I painted my nails pink and it's weird. They were supposed to be red, but it's alright. Tim saw my feet for the first time in 5 months last night. I was creeped out when he commented on them. I'm hanging out with Mariha on Sunday and then I'm taking Diabolical Indignation's promos. I'm pretty excited for all that. I miss Mariha so much.

I'm staying in tonight, but I wanna babysit a kid or something. Just my mood.

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 20:13:55 GMT

I don't mind that Tim is my best friend.
I love Jessie, Courtney, Evan, and so on, but they don't make an effort to talk to me, to keep in touch, or to see me.
I'm getting kinda tired of having one-sided friendships.

Tue, 03 Feb 2009 00:06:24 GMT

I want more respect from you. I just don't know how to get it.

I want more attention from you. You only give me a lot when you realize that you should treat me better or you're sick.